Thursday, December 22, 2005

Cocktails & Dreams...

Last Night....

Beer...

Gin Tonic...

Tequila...

Gin Tonic...

Magic Drink (50%Red V + 25%White V + 12.5%Malibu + 12.5%Orange-Juice)...

Magic Drink...

Havanna Club...

Gin Tonic...

Gin Tonic...

Don't remember much after that...

Zoinked...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Of the Past and all things then...

Saw DCH yesterday, for about the gazillionth time...

Its very strange that everytime I see that movie I start contemplating about friends, college, back then when life was without any nuisances. I do not know why but I do it every single time. Everytime I see it , I decide that this time I am not going to think about anything but eventually I try to rationalise to myself that I miss all that and that I should be thinking about it.

Its amazing how you can rationalise things to yourself...convince yourself about something that you only thought of...but it is one the hardest things to do coz you will always know all the arguments and the counter-arguments...

Maybe its a way in which we try to accept things...but then again, maybe its just me !!!


Wonder...

Friday, December 16, 2005

Rate your life...

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
7.6
Mind:
7.1
Body:
3.7
Spirit:
7.5
Friends/Family:
6.2
Love:
6.9
Finance:
8.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz



Interesting...

Monday, December 12, 2005

Games : To or Not To...

It just occured to me that I have never (ever) put a post about the thing I LOVE to do most...Game !!! So here is some of my game-ology :

Game Genres I like :
First Person Shooters(FPS)
Arcade Games (esp. ones in top down view)
Strategy (AOE et all)

Game Genres I hate :
Superhero games (Spiderman, Batman, Crap-man....)
Simulations
All games ending in ...Tycoon (:P)


Games I started out with : (about 6 yrs ago)
Half-life
RollCage
Age of Empires

Games I am totally for :
Half-life (all versions : Blue Shift, Opposing Force, Uplink)
Max Payne (only 1....I think 2 sucked...)
Serious Sam (1 and 2..go go croteam)
Grand Theft Auto (.....err dont think...all of them)
Need For Speed 3 Hot Pursuit
Age of Empires (1 and Roman Expansion....don't like Kings and Conquerors that much.. :P)
Star Trek Armada
and the immortal - Quake (2 mostly).


Games I am gaming on now :
Half Life 2
(Amazing gameplay, gr8 graphics, but more system requirements as opposed to the hl1 :( )

Alien Shooter
(One light weight arcade style game from some developer called SIGMA team. Gr8 game...try it if u have not. You can find it at reflexive.com)

Crimsonland
(Another light weight arcade style game. Personally liked it better that Alien Shooter, same plot. And you can also find it at reflexive.com)

Games I will get :
GTA - San Andreas
Quake 4
F.E.A.R.


Game on...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Escapade

Here are some images from a place called Engelberg in Switzerland. A very popular ski-destiantion. Had been there with some friends over the weekend. A few shots here and there...a few from my cell-cam and a few from my friends digi-cam.



A camera-savvy mountaion.



Engelberg from up top.



The Hotel I was staying at.



Lead of a local band playing at a local bar...The bar is called 'Ucatan', for all those who want to know. Image is blurry coz it is difficult to stand still when a) U r dancing and b) When about a gazillion people are dancing around you.




Engelberg at 7:00 in the morning.



The view from one of them Hotel Rooms.


Rendering...

Friday, November 25, 2005

As promised...

As promised here are a few pics...(courtesy my friend's digi-cam)





Snow everywhere







View from my office window







Another view










Involve...

The White World...

Continuing the post on snow fallin here....it did snow here today....and snowed big time...about 3 inches of snow...And it looks cool....I do not want to rewrite all the stuff that I had done on the previous post.....but sufficed to say that the view is excellent...will try to post a few pics of the scene here if I am able to...Till then its just me and the whiteness...

Ecstatic...

Monday, November 21, 2005

Deja vu...

It Snowed today...in itself that fact is not that amazing....what's thrilling and ecstatic is that I saw snow (in person) for the first time after 15-odd years. Again that is not amazing in itself but the fact that I personally am pretty pleased with being an Eskimo than a Hawaiian makes up for it.

The thing is that I like the cold weather...and especially when it snows...makes u feel like a part is heaven is being passed on to us...everything is white...pure...unmixed and people want to be warm...

Although it sounds too utopian to think that these words actually mean anything coz a snow day is just another day...but makes me feel like there is beauty in this world and there are things that can cheer up a person no matter how down or out he/she is...just like a baby's touch...or a friendly smile...makes me feel wonderful...and so does the feeling you get when soft snow touches your skin...you shrivel but the feeling is so great that you want to feel it...again and again...

Wonder...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Stuck...

Its amazing how sometimes we wonder of what all wonderful things we could do with our time if only we had it. It is amazing sometimes how you wish that you had just that one more moment of time for yourself and then think of the things that you would do with that moment...

Strangely enough this never works...it never happens...you never "have" the time...It is always some important meeting or that one more minute of sleep...contrasting ways of letting time pass and then gruelling about the lack of it...

It is even more confusing when you have all the time in the world but nothing to do with it...Simply you are too deeply imbibed with the routine of the day that even getting some free time out of it creates a bit of a situation.What to do with this time now? Where to go? Who to call? What to do? And then simply it starts getting painstakingly crampy if you do not have anyone or anything to spend the time...Its simple yet very powerful on how routine can govern our lives.

The time you get up...the things you do then...the bus you take...the place you sit in the bus...the place you get down and walk to the destination...the people you see...the things you can feel around...the things to do...its all a routine...a constantly recurring phenomenon that just does not go away and it is so powerful that in the absence of the routine nothing seems to make sense...we wait and ponder on when the routine is going to be back...to throw us around...It comes back and so do the cravings for free time...

Ironic...

Friday, October 21, 2005

Creatures of Light

An endless trek...up the path of time...changing every passing moment...giving highs and lows...signifying "nothing".

Doers do their best to stay on track and those who do not stray away only to be ravaged and pillaged by the unknown terrain...sticking to the track makes sense in this way but it means that everything becomes monotonous and predictable...means the trek loses its sparks...means "nothing".

It does not always give you whyt you want but takes you tentalizingly close to it...so close that you feel "good"...but then you realise that what you were chasing all this time was a "mirage"...a mirage, of dreams, of hopes and endless contentment...but it goes away as the sick cycle ends...you are back on the trail and so is another mirage for you to chase...Putting a meaning to all this is difficult but it makes an ironic kind of sense for some to play this game of cat and mouse...something to keep you occupied...something to stop you from thinking about other routes...

Life is like that sometime...an endless figment...a desire, a craving of having something that is evading you...having something that you do not have and not wanting something that you do...The trail is yours but you do not want to follow it or more as well the trail does not want you to desert it...but you want a change...a new beginning...to an end that is just as sick as twisted as life itself.

Grudge...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Life has become a hell hole

The title sez it all, life has become a hell hole. I have cut off from everything that I held dear and near. I have not gamed in ages like I used to do every single minute. I no longer drive...sigh...and I no longer live the day. Work has caught up and it has made me a sick twisted workaholic...thing I hate most is that it takes me away from everything else...everything single damn thing.

If u do work u know what i am taking about and if u do not yet, then good for u. Makes sense to have all your time for you...and not for some sick fucking moron running a company who u do not know and who just pays u a shitty amount of greens to sit in front of a screen and type your life away...

For a moment it is good, for a moment it seems like 'yeah'...but slowly everything else moves into the background...every single damn thing...things that u thought were ur life and soul are now forgotten...

U forget how soothing it was to just lie down and wonder how to plan your next quake team deathmatch...or just drive around with no specific place to go....to just hum away all ur troubles or kick some serious alien ass when you are mad at something that happenned during the day...

Well life was so much cooler than...and now it is like a damn vegetable soup...day in and day out.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Dayz go by...

Long time...a very long time indeed. I have been busy all this time so I could not post any posts (!!!). But now that I have a breather, I can post a post (!!!!!!!!!! Wassup with me!!!)....

So, I have been travelling all this time. I went down to Switzerland...Zurich to be precise. Stayed there for about 16 days, place called Oerlikon. Damn neat place. Cool weather, hepp crowd, fast bikes, neat cars....name it and it was there....needless to say I was impressed, damn impressed.

And I was not holidaying....I was there on work related stuff. So, although I did not get to go around much, I did venture around a bit. Some neat shopping joints like IKEA, MediaMarkt, Carrefour....MediaMarkt is like a stinkingly large place with just one thing...electronics....It is very difficult to go there and not wind up broke on ur way out....

Besides these, just walked around and looked. Harleys, Titans, Sports, there were lots of them. But the most ecstatic moment was touching a Lambo....yep, Lamborghini Murcilego....damn is that a fine car or what !!! You have to see that car atleast once....Think its gonna be a long time before we see one here....Besides this masterpiece of a car, I saw a lot of Porsche, Boxter, Carrera GT, 911, Renault, Alfa Romeo, Toyota, Ford, Cherokee....whew.......

While I was there, Mangal Pandey was premeiring at Locarno, not very far from Zurich...But I was too busy to make it there and besides it was late at night....so well....next time.....

But I missed the best deal...There is a Monster truck Jam in Zurich, Messe Hallenstadion (to be precise !!!) in September. 23rd if I remember right...Man, I hope I am there for that. Would give anything for that....

Well, was a nice experience...considering it was a short one and I didn't have much spare time....will make it up on my next trip ;)

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Me? Understand? Nope?

I sometimes don’t understand the way people behave. Especially people in high places. I don’t understand the thought process. It doesn’t make much sense to me. I see beings that only are brilliant but also really good at heart…and also some who I can't understand. They are good at what they do. But I feel a strange kind of vibe whenever I try to get close. They just push away at the slightest things. Makes me wonder if life’s just for that…if that’s all that they wanna do with theirs…

I can't understand how beings can be in constant touch and not share…thoughts…ideas… It doesn’t calculate…doesn’t explain itself…sometimes makes me sick. Sometimes makes me feel like running away from all this ugliness. But then, why should I run away from them. Someday they will realize what they are missing and that day, I will be there…waiting…waiting for the look that they give me when I am still there after all their efforts to make me go away…when I refuse to give up no matter what…when I just don’t quit…just simply don’t quit.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

The World thru the looking glass

I sometimes wonder if this is the life that we strive so hard for…if this is all of it…if this is the one thing that people will do anything for. I don’t get it sometimes, how people can want something so much that they don’t care what they’re giving in return.

I don’t understand the end of the bargain that we hold up. We give, we lose, we get nothing…We sweat, we waste, we die, we get nothing…We love, we hate, we want, we get nothing. We desire, we aim, we crib, and we get nothing. Doesn’t seem all that fair to me…does it?

I guess that there should be something that this life gives us. Something in return…something that would make all this worthwhile…something at least. I don’t know how it evens up…how all the zeroes make the one? Maybe, just maybe…it is not the life…but the things that it brings up with it. The things that it brings into our routines…the people…the places…the moods…the moments…the rushes…the senses…all of what we want, more and more.

But why? What is the point? What moves on never comes back but still we lie in the same place wondering when that bandwagon will stop again and bring us the things that we miss so dearly…things that make us hold on…we wait…we wait…and wait…until something else comes along…and life succeeds once again in doing what it does best….show us “the” finger.

In the most blunt ways…at all times that it can…it shows us that it owns us…our being… that it doesn’t care…not at all…not even a bit. For what it wants is for us to live it…whether we want to…or not. Makes no damn sense to live it then…but we still do and do all that it wants us to do…want in all the ways…ask the exact same questions…take the exact same path…seems like a story sometimes…only that in this one…the reader and the listener are both the same…just that someone else writes it…and makes the most of it…makes the most of “us”.

Don’t know why, how, when, where, till what and since when…but do know that it is not going to change, the same drag…the same games that we play…the same lines…the same cliché…every time….Looking glass, isn’t it? We see thru, and we find “us” on the other side…looking back…expecting that someday…someday…it wont be the same reflection…the same image…sometime…it will change…it will move and give way…

Seems like its going to be a long one…a long one indeed.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Lately...

Its been quite some time since I did this but lets see if I still can....

Dont know why, after all these days, I felt like coming here and saying something...I guess I have not been idle for some time now. Being at work is interesting...One, you dont have time to think about the meaningless falacies of life n all..., Second, it makes some sense out of an otherwise worthless drag called life...and finally you get satisfaction...of finally being able to do something and being noticed for it...

I know it also means that you keep moving further and further away...from what people call "the social life"...but, honestly, "whatever !". I guess sometimes it is just better that it is this way instead of being the highway...


Sometimes I wish if I could just forget about everything else besides what I like...but I know it cant be...it wont be....even if I most dearly wished for it...