Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Tagged...

A tag it is then...

Remove the blog in the top spot from the following list and bump everyone up one place. Then add your blog to the bottom slot, like so.

Radmila
Riri
SEV
Anita
Ashish

Next select five people to tag

Arunima
Sabah
Kriti
Abeer

All others are already taken... :(


What were you doing 10 years ago?
Was in 8th Grade...used to wonder what it would be like to be independent...now I know. :)

What were you doing 1 year ago?
Working...had just started...getting used to life out of home.

Five snacks you enjoy
Salted peanuts (Everyone likes these)
French fries
Indian pakodas
Chocolates (duh !!! )
Chicken wings

Five songs to which you know all the lyrics:
Until I find u again - Richard Marx
Words - Boyzone
Saddi Jaan - Nachattar Gill (Punjabi)
I'm Eighteen - Creed
The Reason - Hoobastank

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire:
Buy a Beach side Mansion complete with a pool and an exclusive game room and what not...
Buy the Ferrari Enzo (Dont think that would fit in the million though)
Buy all the PC game titles ever publised
Chill...(seriously)
Buy a house in the Swiss alps. :)

Five bad habits:
Biting nails
Smoking
Being too blunt (I have that one too)
Spending too much time gaming
Spending money like crazy

Five things you like doing:
Gaming (duh!!!)
Driving
Listening to Music...anytime
Taking time out for me...
Spending time with my family


Five things you would never wear again:
Formals...yuck...
Bright coloured shirts
Any kind of jewellery or accessories
Torn jeans
Frown... :)

Five favorite toys:

My RC Truck...love it.
My Laptop...Dell 6000 Platinum
My G.I.JOE collection
My cell phone...Nokia 6600...old but I love it.
My HE-MAN action figure. :) Yes, I have one.

Which Classic Movie are you ?

Thanks to anita

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

For no particular reason...

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


(Hoobastank - The Reason)

Friday, January 20, 2006

Expanding horizons...

Went out last weekend, originally looking for a camcorder, didn't find one I liked...guess I need to do some more R&D before actually getting one.

But I did not return empty handed. I went down to Carrefour and bought myself GTA- San Andreas. Not that I hate the game, but I am dissappointed...okay this will be another post someday.

Besides that, I also got me an External Hard Disk. 200GB of space. This feels GOOD. No more deleting stuff just because I run out of space. Hah, thats history now.

So what did I do? Moved about 25GB of music, F.R.I.E.N.D.S season 10 + specials, some 2-3 GB of softwares, and what not to the new disc. My laptop now has..."Free Space"...kewl.

More later.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Relative Reality...

Taken forward from a previous discussion...

Real, is just a word. But what is real? How do you know that what you think is real is just something that has been preceived as real and is actually not?

Look at the mirror. What do you see? An image of yourself right? But is it just so simple? Is the mirror showing you just what you are or are you perceiving the image in the mirror as something you recognize? As something you know? What if the mirror just shows you something that you cannot perceive and what you see is just how your brain, based on the available information, decides to interpret it? Imagine looking at something that you do not know what is? How do you decide then? Say, a baby looks at the mirror and sees something? It cannot interpret it as something that is in its knowledge, simply because the knowledge it has is limited at that point. So it looks for explanations. And the closest to what it can be, based on logic and reasoning, is that what it is can be explained by someone who already knows this phenomenon. And so it is interpreted as a "Reflection of self".

The fundamental interpretation here is but flawed. No one actually knows what the mirror does? People just interpret it based on logic and reasoning. And that logic and reasoning comes from information acquired by someone who has encountered this phenomenon already. What if someone were to see something other than themselves in the mirror? What then? It seems hard to believe that this can happen, but is it not already? Is it not actually happening?

We have senses that have evolved over the ages. These senses define how we perceive the world around us. What if tommorrow, someone with a hightened sense, discovers that what our feeble senses pereceive is not actually the correct intertpretation. It is flawed. Just like our eyes can see the stars, but that does not mean that the universe is just that. It just means that our senses are limited in their capability to interpret information. And that if the senses were augmented in some way, there is not telling how the workd would look like?

So again, what is real?

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Shadows in the Darkness

Silence, oblivious silence...but then noises...voices...echoes...from the past...present and the future...I cannot think...I cannot concentrate...there is a rush...no time...Seems like this is the end of it all...the end of time...

Nothing can be more terrifying...more threatening than things inside that can come out...and manifest into events...into beings of impractical might...an uncontrollable force...that gathers merriment and devours it...

I cannot fight them...for they are me...they came from within me...but now they threaten my very existence...Is there a way ? Is there some way ?

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Not enough of this...

Over the weekend...we were watching FRIENDS, Season 8 on Saturday and a part of Sunday...Season 9 on remaining Saturday and yesterday...The last one in Season 9 finished with Joey and Rachel kissing...and that was all we had...We had gone through Seasons 8 and 9 and we still were not satisfied...we wanted to see the 10th season.

But as luck would have had it...we hadn't brought any Season 10 DVDs from the library...damn...but there was a way...

I turned to my trusty laptop for help...A 1 mbps line, Two hours and an evening with Morpheus later...I had almost the entire Season 10 on my laptop.

Then was Nero time, burn the first two episodes onto a CD-RW and presto !!!

We managed to watch the first two episodes of Season 10...

It was by that time we realised that it was time to call it a day...enuf technology for a day...not enuf of FRIENDS though...only if the next day was not a working day...

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Cocktails & Dreams...

Last Night....

Beer...

Gin Tonic...

Tequila...

Gin Tonic...

Magic Drink (50%Red V + 25%White V + 12.5%Malibu + 12.5%Orange-Juice)...

Magic Drink...

Havanna Club...

Gin Tonic...

Gin Tonic...

Don't remember much after that...

Zoinked...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Of the Past and all things then...

Saw DCH yesterday, for about the gazillionth time...

Its very strange that everytime I see that movie I start contemplating about friends, college, back then when life was without any nuisances. I do not know why but I do it every single time. Everytime I see it , I decide that this time I am not going to think about anything but eventually I try to rationalise to myself that I miss all that and that I should be thinking about it.

Its amazing how you can rationalise things to yourself...convince yourself about something that you only thought of...but it is one the hardest things to do coz you will always know all the arguments and the counter-arguments...

Maybe its a way in which we try to accept things...but then again, maybe its just me !!!


Wonder...

Friday, December 16, 2005

Rate your life...

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
7.6
Mind:
7.1
Body:
3.7
Spirit:
7.5
Friends/Family:
6.2
Love:
6.9
Finance:
8.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz



Interesting...

Monday, December 12, 2005

Games : To or Not To...

It just occured to me that I have never (ever) put a post about the thing I LOVE to do most...Game !!! So here is some of my game-ology :

Game Genres I like :
First Person Shooters(FPS)
Arcade Games (esp. ones in top down view)
Strategy (AOE et all)

Game Genres I hate :
Superhero games (Spiderman, Batman, Crap-man....)
Simulations
All games ending in ...Tycoon (:P)


Games I started out with : (about 6 yrs ago)
Half-life
RollCage
Age of Empires

Games I am totally for :
Half-life (all versions : Blue Shift, Opposing Force, Uplink)
Max Payne (only 1....I think 2 sucked...)
Serious Sam (1 and 2..go go croteam)
Grand Theft Auto (.....err dont think...all of them)
Need For Speed 3 Hot Pursuit
Age of Empires (1 and Roman Expansion....don't like Kings and Conquerors that much.. :P)
Star Trek Armada
and the immortal - Quake (2 mostly).


Games I am gaming on now :
Half Life 2
(Amazing gameplay, gr8 graphics, but more system requirements as opposed to the hl1 :( )

Alien Shooter
(One light weight arcade style game from some developer called SIGMA team. Gr8 game...try it if u have not. You can find it at reflexive.com)

Crimsonland
(Another light weight arcade style game. Personally liked it better that Alien Shooter, same plot. And you can also find it at reflexive.com)

Games I will get :
GTA - San Andreas
Quake 4
F.E.A.R.


Game on...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Escapade

Here are some images from a place called Engelberg in Switzerland. A very popular ski-destiantion. Had been there with some friends over the weekend. A few shots here and there...a few from my cell-cam and a few from my friends digi-cam.



A camera-savvy mountaion.



Engelberg from up top.



The Hotel I was staying at.



Lead of a local band playing at a local bar...The bar is called 'Ucatan', for all those who want to know. Image is blurry coz it is difficult to stand still when a) U r dancing and b) When about a gazillion people are dancing around you.




Engelberg at 7:00 in the morning.



The view from one of them Hotel Rooms.


Rendering...

Friday, November 25, 2005

As promised...

As promised here are a few pics...(courtesy my friend's digi-cam)





Snow everywhere







View from my office window







Another view










Involve...

The White World...

Continuing the post on snow fallin here....it did snow here today....and snowed big time...about 3 inches of snow...And it looks cool....I do not want to rewrite all the stuff that I had done on the previous post.....but sufficed to say that the view is excellent...will try to post a few pics of the scene here if I am able to...Till then its just me and the whiteness...

Ecstatic...

Monday, November 21, 2005

Deja vu...

It Snowed today...in itself that fact is not that amazing....what's thrilling and ecstatic is that I saw snow (in person) for the first time after 15-odd years. Again that is not amazing in itself but the fact that I personally am pretty pleased with being an Eskimo than a Hawaiian makes up for it.

The thing is that I like the cold weather...and especially when it snows...makes u feel like a part is heaven is being passed on to us...everything is white...pure...unmixed and people want to be warm...

Although it sounds too utopian to think that these words actually mean anything coz a snow day is just another day...but makes me feel like there is beauty in this world and there are things that can cheer up a person no matter how down or out he/she is...just like a baby's touch...or a friendly smile...makes me feel wonderful...and so does the feeling you get when soft snow touches your skin...you shrivel but the feeling is so great that you want to feel it...again and again...

Wonder...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Stuck...

Its amazing how sometimes we wonder of what all wonderful things we could do with our time if only we had it. It is amazing sometimes how you wish that you had just that one more moment of time for yourself and then think of the things that you would do with that moment...

Strangely enough this never works...it never happens...you never "have" the time...It is always some important meeting or that one more minute of sleep...contrasting ways of letting time pass and then gruelling about the lack of it...

It is even more confusing when you have all the time in the world but nothing to do with it...Simply you are too deeply imbibed with the routine of the day that even getting some free time out of it creates a bit of a situation.What to do with this time now? Where to go? Who to call? What to do? And then simply it starts getting painstakingly crampy if you do not have anyone or anything to spend the time...Its simple yet very powerful on how routine can govern our lives.

The time you get up...the things you do then...the bus you take...the place you sit in the bus...the place you get down and walk to the destination...the people you see...the things you can feel around...the things to do...its all a routine...a constantly recurring phenomenon that just does not go away and it is so powerful that in the absence of the routine nothing seems to make sense...we wait and ponder on when the routine is going to be back...to throw us around...It comes back and so do the cravings for free time...

Ironic...

Friday, October 21, 2005

Creatures of Light

An endless trek...up the path of time...changing every passing moment...giving highs and lows...signifying "nothing".

Doers do their best to stay on track and those who do not stray away only to be ravaged and pillaged by the unknown terrain...sticking to the track makes sense in this way but it means that everything becomes monotonous and predictable...means the trek loses its sparks...means "nothing".

It does not always give you whyt you want but takes you tentalizingly close to it...so close that you feel "good"...but then you realise that what you were chasing all this time was a "mirage"...a mirage, of dreams, of hopes and endless contentment...but it goes away as the sick cycle ends...you are back on the trail and so is another mirage for you to chase...Putting a meaning to all this is difficult but it makes an ironic kind of sense for some to play this game of cat and mouse...something to keep you occupied...something to stop you from thinking about other routes...

Life is like that sometime...an endless figment...a desire, a craving of having something that is evading you...having something that you do not have and not wanting something that you do...The trail is yours but you do not want to follow it or more as well the trail does not want you to desert it...but you want a change...a new beginning...to an end that is just as sick as twisted as life itself.

Grudge...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Life has become a hell hole

The title sez it all, life has become a hell hole. I have cut off from everything that I held dear and near. I have not gamed in ages like I used to do every single minute. I no longer drive...sigh...and I no longer live the day. Work has caught up and it has made me a sick twisted workaholic...thing I hate most is that it takes me away from everything else...everything single damn thing.

If u do work u know what i am taking about and if u do not yet, then good for u. Makes sense to have all your time for you...and not for some sick fucking moron running a company who u do not know and who just pays u a shitty amount of greens to sit in front of a screen and type your life away...

For a moment it is good, for a moment it seems like 'yeah'...but slowly everything else moves into the background...every single damn thing...things that u thought were ur life and soul are now forgotten...

U forget how soothing it was to just lie down and wonder how to plan your next quake team deathmatch...or just drive around with no specific place to go....to just hum away all ur troubles or kick some serious alien ass when you are mad at something that happenned during the day...

Well life was so much cooler than...and now it is like a damn vegetable soup...day in and day out.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Dayz go by...

Long time...a very long time indeed. I have been busy all this time so I could not post any posts (!!!). But now that I have a breather, I can post a post (!!!!!!!!!! Wassup with me!!!)....

So, I have been travelling all this time. I went down to Switzerland...Zurich to be precise. Stayed there for about 16 days, place called Oerlikon. Damn neat place. Cool weather, hepp crowd, fast bikes, neat cars....name it and it was there....needless to say I was impressed, damn impressed.

And I was not holidaying....I was there on work related stuff. So, although I did not get to go around much, I did venture around a bit. Some neat shopping joints like IKEA, MediaMarkt, Carrefour....MediaMarkt is like a stinkingly large place with just one thing...electronics....It is very difficult to go there and not wind up broke on ur way out....

Besides these, just walked around and looked. Harleys, Titans, Sports, there were lots of them. But the most ecstatic moment was touching a Lambo....yep, Lamborghini Murcilego....damn is that a fine car or what !!! You have to see that car atleast once....Think its gonna be a long time before we see one here....Besides this masterpiece of a car, I saw a lot of Porsche, Boxter, Carrera GT, 911, Renault, Alfa Romeo, Toyota, Ford, Cherokee....whew.......

While I was there, Mangal Pandey was premeiring at Locarno, not very far from Zurich...But I was too busy to make it there and besides it was late at night....so well....next time.....

But I missed the best deal...There is a Monster truck Jam in Zurich, Messe Hallenstadion (to be precise !!!) in September. 23rd if I remember right...Man, I hope I am there for that. Would give anything for that....

Well, was a nice experience...considering it was a short one and I didn't have much spare time....will make it up on my next trip ;)

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Me? Understand? Nope?

I sometimes don’t understand the way people behave. Especially people in high places. I don’t understand the thought process. It doesn’t make much sense to me. I see beings that only are brilliant but also really good at heart…and also some who I can't understand. They are good at what they do. But I feel a strange kind of vibe whenever I try to get close. They just push away at the slightest things. Makes me wonder if life’s just for that…if that’s all that they wanna do with theirs…

I can't understand how beings can be in constant touch and not share…thoughts…ideas… It doesn’t calculate…doesn’t explain itself…sometimes makes me sick. Sometimes makes me feel like running away from all this ugliness. But then, why should I run away from them. Someday they will realize what they are missing and that day, I will be there…waiting…waiting for the look that they give me when I am still there after all their efforts to make me go away…when I refuse to give up no matter what…when I just don’t quit…just simply don’t quit.